Post 148…I Feel So Broken Today Lord

Friday, December 30, 2022

I woke up this morning feeling very, very broken. I know inside I really am not, but that is what I felt this morning.  I am feeling pressure from the enemy and I don’t like this.  Why does life have to be so difficult at times?  Why? Don’t you feel this way at times too?

    Maybe it is because I am feeling sick with whatever is going around at the moment and I really am feeling tired, sick, exhausted and Lord, I still have things I need to do. However, I am so thankful to my Lord and Savior Jesus because even in the difficult times He still hangs out with me and gives me a little push of strength to go on.    

Sometimes our strength just needs a bit of a push, a regeneration of sorts to start our motor.  I was not just feeling physically tired today, but spiritually tired as well.  I look around at this insane world and just don’t understand why people want to destroy our world so badly. I guess today I am feeling not only sick because I am physically sick right now, but spiritually depleted, and emotionally bankrupt.  I don’t like to feel this way, and if you are feeling this way you most likely don’t like it either.

What are we tired about right now.  If you ask yourself this question what do you answer…not for yesterday or tomorrow, but what are you feeling in this moment that is making you tired?   

Are you waiting for a miracle to get you through whatever “it” is?  Are you waiting for someone to come along and make things better/happy for you?  Are you sick and need healing?  Are you lonely and want a great friend?  What do you need and what is making you feel bad? Do you realize that while Jesus walked on this earth He also would get tired and hungry…and He needed to pray to His Father in heaven. Jesus always knows what we feel and why.  It is us that doesn’t always know. I know that, for me, I don’t like to wait.  I am a person who wants to get to the bottom of something and get things done.  That’s just me.  I like order and I like to accomplish what I begin.  However, that might not always happen for me…or for you.  Sometimes we just have to wait on things. But Lord, how long do I/you have to wait?  Do we then say…can’t you hurry this up a bit Lord? 

I won’t tell you the subject matter here but I asked God for something many years ago.  It didn’t happen no matter how many times I prayed for it to be so, but then one day… wah-la…there it was…the answer to my prayer. God is not on our timetable and He is never late.  It is no fun waiting for something especially when we want a prayer answered, but God truly is never late.  

    We are alive and we are on a journey through this life. Some paths we take are good paths, while others take us away from where we need to be headed. If only we would stay on God’s path no matter if it has valleys, mountains, or oceans to cross…we would get there much sooner.  Will be take what looks like the easy path or will we take the path no matter how difficult it might be to get the result we need to get? One of the toughest things is to wait, but there is always a purpose and plan with God if He says to wait!

    Our journey through life whichever road we take will lead somewhere.  I have taken the wrong road many times and I can tell you I fully regret doing that, but it is over and I can’t change it.  However, I learned from my mistakes so that is a plus. I know I don’t want to repeat the mistakes I made in life.  It was also a lot of wasted time and energy and for what?  I went down the wrong path until God grabbed ahold of me and brought me back to Him. 

    Sometimes we feel our time is wasted and there is no purpose, but God always has a plan and purpose for our life.  No one is more important than anyone else, and no race is more important than another either.  God made all of us and if we can’t get along here on earth, why would God ever allow any of us in heaven?

    God wants us to produce love and fruit in our life.  Are, or have, we really been doing that?  Maybe sometimes yes, but maybe no sometimes as well.  Shouldn’t we be working on being and doing better?

    Lord, yes, today I woke up and have been feeling so down and broken.  However, I know this is not of you.  You didn’t cause this and you don’t want this for me.  So……..what is with this feeling right now? I feel weak of soul and I need your strength to carry me on today. Lord, give me your strength please.  I need you and I need your strength.  My being feels weary.  Renew my strength Lord today and every day. Lord, I look to you because you are the only one who can get me out of these feelings and carry me through.

 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:20   Lord, I claim this promise of yours and thank you today in advance.

Sometimes life feels like a vicious cycle.  Good day, bad day, crazy day and repeat again and again.  The road in life, at times, seems so long and curvy and I just need to get back on the straight road of yours. I need to march forward and never look back.  Why?  Because the past is past and all I have now is to look to you and the future.  Help me do that Lord. There is continually hope and strength to be found in every situation if and when you choose to put your trust in Him! “Even if you are in tears today, joy comes in the morning!” Psalm 30:5   We really can see joy again many times over when we keep our focus on Him.  When we feel off centered let us just go to Him and ask Him to help us get through it. 


Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:28-30   Lord, I feel weary and burdened today…I am coming to you so I can find your rest.  

So I heard that voice this morning just shouting in my head…you are broken. Do you know we all feel broken at times and we really are broken.  God wants to help each of us when we feel broken in life. I feel like a piece of pottery at the moment that feels like it has flaws and ready to crumble, but I know the Potter and He is working on fixing me at this very moment.  He knows how to fill in the holes and mend the pottery.  I am the clay and He is the Potter and it is time to allow God to fix me/you, so we can get on with our day.

God made you and I and we are not mistakes, and we are not broken pottery.  We have value to God and that matters more than what any human might think about us.     

God created our appearance and no matter how or who we seem to judge for how they might look…God loves them and wants the best for them and wants them to make it to heaven. He looks at the heart of a person and works on that.  God also knows exactly what kind of things we struggle with in life.  Some we can make it through on our own no problem, but others we need the Potter’s help. He needs to smooth us out and make us fit for service again. Lord, transform me to whatever your will is for my life. Lord, take my brokenness today and turn it around to help whoever took the time to read this.  Maybe someone will even share it with another.  Please bless them.   God uses the weak things of the world and chooses flawed people to achieve great things! Lord, even if I never accomplish great things in my life (in your opinion)…please use me to help someone make it into heaven and see you. I might feel terribly broken this morning, but then I see that the rest of my day matters too…so I turn this over to you to use it Lord as you see fit.  Thank you for listening Lord.

Now, may the Creator of everything bless you, draw you, take away any negative broken feeling you are going through, any difficult situations you are facing, and may He give you His peace.

God bless you!